caught off guard…

so after The Shinobies finished our gig at the Lotus Festival…my girl, her sister and I go to Little Tokyo since we’re in the area, I got some of those Kanye glasses for like 5 bucks, which is dope cuz Urban Outfitters sells them for like 18+ tax (fucking rip off).  Anyway, after doing a bit of shopping and eating in Little Tokyo, on the way to the car, the 3 of us cross the street during a red light in which there is a line of cars building up.  This one car speeds up and almosts hits us because he doesn’t want to let us cross (maybe he’s in a hurry) then he pulls behind another car because the light is still red and no one is moving, so I head in front of his car, not because I’m pissed that he wouldn’t slow down for us (cuz I didn’t even notice) but our car was directly in fron of us, if I crossed in front of him.  So his car is stopped cuz the red light right? and after we walk in front of him, he rolls down his passenger side window where this Asian wife? girlfriend? is sitting, and yells “CHING CHONG CHING.”  Not very smart, cuz the light is red and he moves like 3 feet, so I walk up to his car and knock on the window, he rolls the window on his side and I know he can hear me so I say…”What the fuck did you say? why did you say that?” He flicks me off and tries not to notice me like the bitch he is…and then I said “what the fuck is wrong with you and show him a peace sign” and said “chill out man!! it’s not a big deal…”  I mean we crossed the street when he was stopped and couldn’t move…is that worth a racist remark?

he’s lucky cuz had I been by myself or with any other homies, his car would have been fucked up…

what a fucking racist piece of shit dumb fuck…I can’t believe people are still like that and over something so stupid…

questions…

I am a point in my Life where I need to focus my mind more to prepare for what’s coming.  The Shinobies…I like my band mates and consider myself very lucky.  I had the chance to kick it with some really dope musicians over the past weekend and one particular had this manager/producer and he was like an elder brother and I would see him on the phone making sure everything was going well with them.  No one ever looked out for me like that and to see that, I felt like something was missing.

I’ve been questioning myself a lot lately.  Some people attribute it to not winning the OCMA’s but it’s happened before that…I feel weird wanting to win…I feel bad that people come out to support me and I don’t win.  So my mood has nothing to do with that but other personal struggles in my life I wish not to publicize so openly.

Where am I going?  I released my album and wish to get rid of it because I want to focus on the band and what we can do together.  There are a lot of things I would do differently.  It was never my intention to mix edit and produce the album on my own…it was just that monetarily, it was all I  could afford.  A few of my friends, mostly musicians said I should have had it done professionally…maybe wait it out longer…

I thought of Green Day and the quality of their first album.  It wasn’t all that great, but they did just to do it…and I was tired of waiting and had all these morbid fears of dying young. I also liked the idea of the Do it Yourself Punk rock ethos. I don’t have the time I need to really experiment and learn different techniques and try different qualities of sound.

There is really a lot I need to learn…sometimes it’s overwhelming.  I think perhaps I should know a little bt about it and hopefully find someone who knows how to extract the best parts of my performance/music and record it.

Patience.  I have to be patient and concentrate on practicing with the Shinobies.

shine down

Another birthday missed,

friends I’ll always miss,

I feel very self destructive today. I feel very sad.

screw image and screw expectations

Supposedly as a musician or artist, I’m supposed to adhere to a specific genre. I’m not a hard core punk cuz I rap, I’m not a true hip hop head cuz I play guitar. Everyone has an opinion on what it is they think you should or should not be doing to define yourself. I say fuck them and their standards. Be yourself, cuz you will be unhappy trying to be anything you are not. And you can never please anyone, cuz most of the time, the people who try and tell you what you should be doing are haters and will constantly and continually hate on the things you love to do. Just love what you do, that’s what I say. Cuz if you love something, it’s always taking you somewhere. I try not to worry about my destination so much anymore. I just want to live knowing I loved every moment.

Saigon Baby

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Lyrics

“Saigon Baby”

Written/Composed by Nam Ninja

My baby she came from Saigon
Left her family, heart was broken
She studied and worked in America
Where I fell in love with her.

In the beginning, people treated her bad
Sometimes Americans are such a drag
Some of them don’t like foreigners
They didn’t know what she had gone through

We met each other in College
She was still speaking broken english
She had the most beautiful brown eyes
Thoughts of her family always made her cry

My beautiful Saigon girl
Pretend the world is yours

I know you miss your mom and dad
And all your brothers and sisters
And though the War split Vietnam apart
You’ll always have a place in my heart

My Saigon Girl
Pretend the whole world is yours

The Shinobies’ Logo

Johnnie Dominguez

has drawn The Shinobies Logo

and it is awesome

With a Little Help From My Friends

With a Little Help From My Friends

A tribute to my friends and fans across the universe <3

Thanks!! Much Love!!

people are cool

in the dark

dancing in the dark alone with you is so much fun…